I knelt before Diya, my heart actually calm. Or rather, it was calm after a long period of reflection.
The stone floor was cold against my knees, a familiar sensation I had forced countless others to experience. Now it was my turn. The irony did not escape me. I had designed this very chamber, chosen each stone with care, ensured the perfect temperature to keep slaves alert and uncomfortable during long hours of waiting. How many had trembled here, wondering what punishment or pleasure I would bestow upon them? How many had I kept kneeling for hours, just to watch the hope drain from their eyes?
And now I was the one kneeling.
My red hair fell forward, brushing against my shoulders as I lowered my head. I had tied it back simply today, no elaborate styles, no ornamental combs. Only the plainest ribbon, because I no longer deserved adornment. I had taken off my jewelry this morning, piece by piece, laying each ring and bracelet in their velvet boxes like artifacts from a former life. The weight of them had felt like chains in recent months, reminders of a role I no longer wished to play.
For three years, I watched this little girl I had picked up from the wilderness grow up little by little. She always looked at me with those watery eyes. No matter how I trained her, how I made her sob and climax under my fingers, she carried an almost worshipful love. That love both satisfied and vaguely unsettled me—I began to yearn to be completely enveloped by that same love, rather than forever standing at the top.
When I personally removed the collar from her neck and held it up before her, my fingers trembled slightly. The weight of the metal once represented my dominance, but now it had become a gift I offered to her.
My palms were sweating. I could feel the dampness against the cool metal, could see the faint tremor in my hands that I could not control. How long had it been since I last trembled? Years. Decades perhaps. I had built myself into something immovable, unshakeable, a fortress of will and power. And now I was shaking like a leaf before a storm, all because of a child.
No, not just any child. Diya.
I looked at her through my lashes, not daring to raise my head fully. She was standing before me, so small in her simple dress, her dark hair falling around her delicate face. Those eyes—those impossibly deep eyes that had haunted my dreams for months—were watching me with a mixture of confusion and something else. Something that looked almost like fear.
She was afraid. Good. No, not good. I did not want her afraid. But her fear told me she understood the gravity of this moment. She knew what I was offering was not a game, not another test, not another lesson in the cruel education I had subjected her to. This was real.
'Please dominate me... my beloved mistress.'
The words left my lips before I could stop them, and once spoken, they hung in the air like a spell taking form. My voice was steady, surprising even myself. I had rehearsed this moment so many times in my head, speaking the words in solitude until they felt natural, until the shame of them had worn away into something like anticipation.
The moment I said those words, I felt all my mana rejoicing. The cold touch of the collar being refastened around my neck made me shiver. The oppressive feeling of being bound was so real, yet it strangely relaxed me. Mana began to flow, like a warm yet aggressive stream pouring from my body into hers. I could clearly feel my power being slowly drained away—the formidable mana that once could manipulate others at will was now obediently submitting to this mere eleven-year-old girl.
Am I really going to do this? Reason struggled at the last moment. I was once the lofty Lady Eileen, the mistress of countless slaves, the dominator who made Diya tremble on the training table again and again. Now, I had voluntarily given everything away. My breasts rose and fell gently with my breath, my nipples already erect with sensitivity, my private parts faintly feeling an empty heat. I did not resist. I just knelt quietly, letting this feeling of being drained slowly seep into my bones.
The mana transfer was unlike anything I had experienced before. It was not like the controlled flow of power when I cast spells, nor the violent surge of battle magic. This was intimate, personal, a river of my very essence flowing into another person. I could feel Diya's mana core accepting mine, could sense the way her body struggled to contain power that had never been meant for her. She was so small, so fragile, and yet she was taking all of me.
I gasped as the flow intensified. My body arched involuntarily, hands pressing flat against the floor to keep myself upright. Every muscle tensed, every nerve ending screamed with sensation. It was agony. It was ecstasy. It was the most vulnerable I had ever been in my entire life.
The collar around my neck felt heavy, real. It was not the decorative piece I had worn as a symbol of status, nor the practical one that regulated my mana for training. This was a slave collar, plain and unadorned, exactly the kind I had placed on countless others. The metal was cool against my throat, a constant reminder of what I had become.
When the transfer was complete, I felt an unprecedented weakness. My limbs were numb, but my body was unusually sensitive. A gentle breeze brushing over my skin felt like a lover's caress. I could feel every fiber of the fabric against my knees, every imperfection in the stone floor, every whisper of air that moved through the chamber. The world had become overwhelming, too sharp, too real.
I lowered my head, not daring to meet Diya's eyes, yet through the newly established mana link, I vaguely sensed her complex emotions of confusion and love. That love reassured me—even if I had nothing now, at least she was still here.
The link between us was faint at first, like a thread of spider silk connecting our cores. But as I focused on it, I could feel the shape of her emotions, the warmth of her presence. She was confused, yes, and frightened. But beneath that, there was something else. Something tender and protective. Something that made my heart ache.
I had spent three years teaching her to obey, to submit, to surrender. I had broken her down and rebuilt her in my image. And yet, somewhere in that process, she had maintained a core of love that I could not extinguish. That love had survived my cruelty, my manipulations, my endless tests. It had grown stronger, purer, until it had begun to change me in return.
I slowly removed my clothes. Each piece I took off felt like peeling away my former self. When the last undergarment slipped to my ankles, I stood completely naked before her. The cool air against my private parts made me tremble slightly. The coldness of the floor beneath my feet made me even more aware of my vulnerability.
My fingers worked the buttons of my dress with deliberate slowness. There was no rush, no need to hurry. This was a ritual, and rituals demanded patience. The fabric slid over my shoulders, catching briefly on my arms before falling to pool around my waist. I paused there, half-clothed, giving her time to see what she was receiving.
She had seen my body before, of course. In my role as mistress, I had often trained her while partially dressed, using the contrast of our states to reinforce her position. But this was different. This was not me displaying my superiority. This was me offering my vulnerability.
I reached behind my back to undo the clasps of my undergarments. My fingers fumbled, clumsy with nerves. I had to try twice before the fabric loosened, and I let it fall forward, catching it briefly before letting it join my dress on the floor.
Now I was bare from the waist up. The air was cool against my breasts, making my nipples tighten further. I could feel her gaze on me, could sense through the link her confusion and curiosity. She had never seen me like this, completely exposed, completely defenseless.
I reached for my skirt, unfastening it with steady hands. It fell to the floor, and I stepped out of it, leaving me in only the thin fabric of my smallclothes. These I removed last, hooking my thumbs into the waistband and sliding them down my legs. I had to balance on one foot, then the other, a moment of awkwardness that reminded me how human I still was.
From this moment on, I was no longer the mistress. This thought struck like lightning, but it brought not fear, but a long-awaited liberation. Finally, I could love her, serve her, with my whole being and without reservation.
I settled back onto my knees, my hands resting on my thighs, my head bowed. This was the position I had taught her, the posture of submission I had demanded from all my slaves. Now I was the one assuming it, and the rightness of it settled into my bones like a homecoming.
The silence stretched between us. I could hear my own breathing, could feel my heart beating against my ribs. The mana link pulsed with Diya's emotions, a constant background hum that I was still learning to interpret.
"Eileen?" Her voice was small, uncertain.
I did not look up. "Yes, mistress?"
"Is this..." She paused, and I could sense her struggling with what to say. "Is this really what you want?"
The question caught me off guard. In all my preparations, I had not anticipated that she would ask. I had expected confusion, perhaps resistance. But her concern for my wellbeing, even now, even when I had enslaved myself to her, touched something deep within me.
"Yes," I said, and my voice was steadier than I had expected. "This is what I want. What I have wanted for a long time."
"But why?" Her footsteps approached, and I could see her bare feet stop before me. "You were the mistress. You were powerful, beautiful, in control of everything. Why would you give that up?"
I raised my head slightly, just enough to see her legs, her simple dress, her small hands clenched at her sides. I did not dare meet her eyes. Not yet.
"Because power is lonely," I said softly. "Because control is exhausting. Because for three years, I have watched you love me despite everything I did to you, and I realized that your love was worth more than all my power combined."
I felt a tear slide down my cheek. I had not cried in years, had trained myself out of such displays of weakness. But now the tears came freely, and I did not try to stop them.
"Diya," I whispered. "My precious Diya. I have done terrible things to you. I have hurt you, manipulated you, used you for my own pleasure and power. And yet you loved me. You loved me when I did not deserve it, when I had done nothing to earn it. Your love broke something inside me, something that had been locked away for so long I had forgotten it existed."
She knelt before me, her small hands reaching out to touch my face. Her fingers were warm against my skin, gentle as she wiped away my tears. Through the link, I could feel her emotions shifting, confusion giving way to understanding.
"I was so afraid," she admitted. "When you took off my collar, I thought I had done something wrong. I thought you were going to send me away."
"Never." The word came out fierce, possessive. "I will never leave you. I have bound myself to you, body and soul. Wherever you go, I will follow. Whatever you command, I will obey. I am yours, Diya. Completely and forever yours."
Her hands trembled against my cheeks. "But I don't know how to be a mistress. You taught me to be a slave. I don't know how to do this."
I smiled, and I could feel the tears still falling, mixing with the salt on my lips. "Then I will teach you. Just as you have taught me what love truly means."
She was silent for a long moment, her thumbs tracing gentle patterns on my cheekbones. Then she spoke, and her voice held a new note, something like authority finding its first voice.
"Eileen. Look at me."
I raised my eyes slowly, meeting her gaze for the first time since I h
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