The kitchen still smelled of soy sauce and sesame oil. Zhiya scraped the last of the stir-fried greens onto Yaya’s plate and sat down across from her, the chair creaking under her weight. She was tired. Her feet ached from standing all day at the boutique, and the dull throb behind her eyes had been building since noon.
Yaya, however, was buzzing. Her spoon clattered against the ceramic bowl as she talked, her words tumbling out in a breathless rush.
“—and then Zhang Laoshi said my drawing of the butterfly was the best in the whole class! He even put it up on the bulletin board, right in the middle, so everyone can see it when they walk in!”
Zhiya nodded, lifting her own bowl. “That’s nice, baby.”
“And at recess, he played jump rope with us. He said I was really good at timing the jumps. He said I had natural rhythm.” Yaya beamed, her small face bright with pride. “He said maybe I could be a dancer one day, like you used to be.”
A dancer. The word pricked at Zhiya’s chest. She took a sip of soup to wash down the bitterness. “That’s sweet of him.” Her voice came out flat, even to her own ears.
But Yaya didn’t notice. She was already off on another story, her spoon waving like a baton. “And in math class, I got the hardest problem right, and Zhang Laoshi gave me a sticker—see?” She pushed up her sleeve to reveal a little star-shaped sticker on her wrist. “He said I’m his little star.”
Zhiya’s fingers tightened around the spoon. *His* little star. Not hers. She watched her daughter’s animated face, the way her eyes lit up whenever she said Teacher Zhang’s name. It had been like this for weeks now. Every dinner was a monologue about Zhang Laoshi this, Zhang Laoshi that. The man had somehow inserted himself into every corner of Yaya’s world.
“And you know what else?” Yaya leaned forward, lowering her voice conspiratorially. “He said I’m the smartest kid in the whole class. He said he’s really proud of me.”
Zhiya set her spoon down. “That’s good, sweetie. I’m proud of you too.”
Yaya blinked, as if surprised by the statement. She tilted her head, studying her mother for a moment, then shrugged and went back to her food. “I know, Mama. But Zhang Laoshi *shows* it. He always gives me high-fives and tells me I’m special.”
The words landed like a slap. Zhiya’s throat tightened. She wanted to say something, to remind Yaya of all the times she had helped with homework, or stayed up late sewing a costume for the school play, or sacrificed her own dreams to give Yaya a stable home. But the words were thick and clumsy, and they died on her tongue.
Instead, she asked, “Do you like Teacher Zhang a lot?”
Yaya nodded without hesitation. “Yeah. He’s my favorite teacher ever. I wish he could be my dad.”
Zhiya’s heart dropped into her stomach. She forced a smile. “You have a mama. Isn’t that enough?”
“It’s different,” Yaya said, with the casual cruelty of a child. “Zhang Laoshi makes me feel… special. Like I’m the most important person in the world.”
*You are the most important person in my world*, Zhiya wanted to scream. But the words felt hollow, because Yaya had never once said “I love you, Mama” unprompted. Not once. The girl would say it if Zhiya asked, but it was always flat, dutiful—never with the sparkling enthusiasm she showed for that teacher.
Zhiya’s jealousy coiled inside her like a snake. She hated it. Hated the way her daughter’s face lit up for a stranger, the way that man had somehow stolen the affection she had worked so hard to earn. She thought of her own mother, who had never praised her, who had always pushed her harder and farther. Zhiya had sworn she would be different. She would be warm, loving, present.
And yet here she was, sitting across from a daughter who had given her heart to someone else.
“Yaya,” she said slowly, keeping her voice even, “does your teacher often talk to you like this? Does he say these things to other students too?”
Yaya’s expression flickered—a tiny, almost imperceptible shift. Then she smiled again. “He says them to me the most. Because I’m his favorite.”
A cold knot formed in Zhiya’s stomach. A teacher who plays favorites. A man who tells an eight-year-old she’s “special” and calls her “his little star.” She remembered her own ballet instructor in high school, the way he used to single her out for “extra practice,” the compliments that made her feel chosen. She had been sixteen, not eight. But still.
She didn’t like it. She didn’t like it at all.
“Maybe I should talk to Principal Wang about him,” Zhiya murmured, half to herself.
Yaya’s spoon froze mid-air. Her eyes went wide, and for a split second, Zhiya caught something sharp and calculating in her daughter’s gaze. Then it was gone, replaced by a pout. “Why? Zhang Laoshi hasn’t done anything wrong. He’s just nice to me.”
“I know, baby. But nice teachers don’t have favorites. It’s… not professional.”
“You’re just jealous,” Yaya said flatly.
The accusation hit harder than a physical blow. Zhiya’s hand trembled as she picked up her bowl. “That’s not true. I’m looking out for you.”
“You’re always looking out for me,” Yaya muttered, pushing her vegetables around her plate. “You never let me have anything fun. Zhang Laoshi says I should enjoy being a kid.”
Zhiya felt the walls closing in. The kitchen suddenly felt too small, too hot. She set her bowl down again, her appetite gone. “Finish your dinner. Then homework.”
Yaya sighed, loud and dramatic, but she obeyed. The rest of the meal passed in silence, broken only by the scrape of spoons and the hum of the refrigerator. Zhiya’s mind raced. She had to find out more about this Teacher Zhang. She had to make sure her daughter was safe.
And if she was honest, a small, ugly part of her just wanted to prove that Yaya was wrong to love him more than her.