The waiting room of the Fourth People’s Hospital smelled of antiseptic and stale regret. Lin Hao sat hunched in the plastic chair, his shoulders curled inward as if trying to fold himself into a smaller, less noticeable shape. His fingers picked at a loose thread on the cuff of his jacket, and his eyes stayed fixed on a scuff mark on the floor tiles. He did not look up when the nurse called his name.
“Lin Hao? The doctor will see you now.”
His mother touched his arm gently. “Hao Hao, it’s our turn.”
He flinched at her touch but did not resist as she helped him stand. His father stood behind them, a tall man whose face had settled into a permanent frown over the past two years. He said nothing. There was nothing left to say that hadn’t already been said in the waiting rooms of six other hospitals.
The doctor was a middle-aged woman with tired eyes and a clipboard. She gestured for them to sit. The examination room was small and white, with a single window that looked out onto a brick wall. Lin Hao chose the chair farthest from the doctor and closest to the door.
“So,” the doctor said, glancing at the referral notes, “Lin Hao, twenty-two years old. Severe social anxiety, avoidance behavior, and what the previous clinician described as ‘extreme inferiority complex.’” She looked up. “Your parents say you haven’t left the house in three months?”
Lin Hao’s jaw tightened. He stared at the floor.
“He can’t even talk to strangers,” his mother said quickly, her voice thin and pleading. “He dropped out of university last semester. He won’t answer phone calls. He—he barely eats with us at the table anymore.” She pressed a tissue to her eyes. “We’ve tried everything. Medication. Acupuncture. That… that therapy with the computers. Nothing works.”
The doctor nodded slowly. She set down her pen. “I understand your frustration. But based on the records, Lin Hao has never completed a full course of cognitive behavioral therapy. He has refused the intake sessions every time.”
“He’s scared,” his father said, his voice low and rough. “He’s scared of everything. You tell him to talk to a stranger about his feelings and he shuts down completely. We’ve watched him disappear into himself piece by piece.”
“That is precisely the reason therapy is necessary,” the doctor said. “The avoidance reinforces the fear. I can prescribe a different medication, but without concurrent psychological treatment, the improvement will be limited. I strongly recommend finding a therapist he can trust, perhaps someone who specializes in exposure therapy—”
“No.” Lin Hao’s voice was barely a whisper, but it cut through the room like a blade.
Everyone turned to him.
“No,” he repeated, shaking his head. His hands trembled in his lap. “I don’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t want to tell some stranger about—about—please. Just give me pills. I’ll take anything.”
The doctor looked at him with a mixture of pity and professional frustration. “Medication can only do so much, Lin Hao. The root of the problem is psychological. If you continue to avoid facing your fears, you will only dig yourself deeper.”
“I said no!” His voice cracked. He stood up abruptly, knocking his chair back against the wall. His mother reached for him, but he pulled away, stumbling toward the door. “I can’t. I just can’t.”
He fled into the hallway, nearly colliding with a nurse pushing a cart of supplies. He didn’t stop. He kept walking, head down, until he reached the far end of the corridor where a fire exit led to a small, empty stairwell. He sat down on the cold concrete steps and pressed his palms against his eyes, breathing in ragged, shallow gasps.
Minutes later, his parents found him there. His mother crouched beside him, crying silently. His father stood a few steps above, one hand gripping the railing, his knuckles white.
“We’ll find another way,” his father said, his voice hollow. “We won’t give up, son.”
Lin Hao didn’t answer. He just sat there, a small, broken shape in the gray light of the stairwell.
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Three days later, on a wet Tuesday evening, Lin Hao’s mother came home with a piece of paper clutched in her hand. Her eyes were red-rimmed but there was a desperate, feverish light in them that her husband hadn’t seen in months.
“I heard something,” she said, closing the door quietly behind her. Lin Hao was in his room—they could hear his TV playing the same nature documentary he’d watched every night for a week. She pulled her husband into the kitchen and lowered her voice. “From Mrs. Chen at the market. She said her nephew had the same problem as Hao Hao. Complete shutdown. Wouldn’t see anyone. Wouldn’t even look at people.”
“And?” Lin’s father leaned against the counter, arms crossed. He was tired. So tired.
“And she took him to a clinic. A special place. Not a hospital. A private clinic that doesn’t advertise.” She unfolded the paper. On it was an address and a name: *Dr. Xu. Renovation Therapy Center.*
“Renovation therapy?” He frowned. “That sounds like a scam.”
“Does it matter?” Her voice broke. “He’s been in his room for three months, Wei. Three months. He barely eats. He doesn’t shower unless I beg him. We’ve tried everything the doctors have to offer. Everything. And they all say the same thing—he needs to talk, he needs to let someone in, but he won’t. So what do we do? Watch him fade away?”
Lin’s father rubbed his face with both hands. He wanted to argue. He wanted to call the police, report this “doctor” for practicing without a license. But he also wanted his son back.
“What does this therapy involve?” he asked quietly.
“Mrs. Chen didn’t know exactly. She said her nephew went in as a shell and came out talking, laughing, even got a job. It only took a few weeks.” She grabbed his arm. “I know it sounds strange. But we have nothing left to lose.”
He looked at the address. It was in an industrial district on the outskirts of the city, far from any proper medical facility. Every instinct in his body screamed danger.
But then he heard his son’s muffled voice from the bedroom, repeating a line from the documentary along with the narrator, word for word, like a child seeking comfort in repetition. And his resolve crumbled.
“All right,” he said. “We’ll go tomorrow.”
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The next afternoon, they told Lin Hao they were taking him for a “special consultation.” He didn’t ask questions. He just pulled on his hoodie, zipped it up to his chin, and followed them to the car without a word. The drive was silent. Rain streaked the windows, blurring the neon signs and traffic lights into smears of color.
The clinic was located on the second floor of an old commercial building, above a shuttered hardware store. The stairwell smelled of dust and mildew. Lin’s mother knocked on a door with no sign, just a peephole and a number painted in peeling gold.
The door opened. A woman in a white coat stood there, her face smooth and pleasant, like a mask. Behind her, the hallway was dimly lit, lined with doors that were all closed.
“You must be the Lins,” she said, her voice warm and professional. “Please, come in. Dr. Xu is expecting you.”
Lin Hao hesitated at the threshold. Something in the air felt wrong—too still, too quiet. But his mother’s hand pressed gently against his back, and his father’s solid presence stood behind him, and he had no strength left to resist.
He stepped inside.
The door clicked shut behind them.