The morning sun cast long shadows across the schoolyard, but Xun kept his eyes fixed on the ground as he walked. He had learned to make himself small, to take up as little space as possible. It never worked.
“Hey, freak!” Zhao Hu’s voice cut through the chatter of students. He was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed, a smirk spreading across his thick face. “Still growing? Or still not growing?”
Xun’s jaw tightened. He kept walking.
Zhao Hu stepped into his path, blocking him. “I asked you a question.” He poked Xun’s chest with a thick finger. “You hear me? Or are your ears as broken as the rest of you?”
A few students slowed to watch. No one intervened. They never did.
“Leave me alone,” Xun said quietly.
Zhao Hu laughed. “Or what? You’ll cry? You’ll go tell the teacher? Go ahead.” He leaned in, dropping his voice to a mock whisper. “Everyone knows you’re not really a boy. You’re just some—thing. Half of nothing.”
Xun’s hands curled into fists at his sides, but he didn’t swing. He never did. What was the point? Zhao Hu was twice his size and had friends who would join in. So Xun stood there and took it, like always.
That afternoon in PE class, Teacher Li had them line up for relay races. Xun tried to blend into the middle of the pack, but Zhao Hu made sure he was on the same team. Every time Xun got the baton, Zhao Hu would shoulder him aside, laughing as Xun stumbled. Teacher Li blew his whistle but said nothing, just told them to keep moving.
During the water break, Xun sat alone on the bleachers, wiping sweat with his sleeve. That’s when he saw Mary. She was walking across the field with a group of girls, her dark hair swinging with each step. She laughed at something one of them said, and for a moment Xun forgot to breathe. Everyone liked Mary. She was pretty, smart, and kind to almost everyone—except that she never looked at Xun. Why would she?
Zhao Hu certainly looked at her. He stared openly whenever she was around, flexing his muscles and talking louder than necessary. But Mary never gave him more than a polite nod. She kept her distance.
The weeks passed. Xun began to notice changes in himself. He was getting taller—not just a little, but noticeably. His shoulders broadened. His voice dropped deeper than it had any right to. One morning he looked in the mirror and barely recognized the person staring back. The softness was gone from his face, replaced by hard lines and a jaw that could cut glass.
But the most startling change happened at night. Xun had always been self-conscious about his body, but now that self-consciousness turned into something else—curiosity, then shock. He grew. And grew. The thing between his legs swelled to a size that seemed impossible, heavy and thick even at rest. He didn’t know what to do with it. He was afraid to even touch it.
The shift in his social standing was gradual at first. Boys who used to shove him in the hallways began to step aside. The whispers changed from mocking to speculative. “What happened to Lin Ye?” they murmured. “He’s different now.”
Zhao Hu noticed. He tried to reassert dominance, shoving Xun harder than usual during a break between classes. But this time Xun didn’t stagger. He stood solid, and when he turned to face Zhao Hu, there was something in his eyes that made Zhao Hu take a step back.
“Watch yourself,” Xun said. His voice was calm, low, and carried a weight it had never had before.
Zhao Hu laughed, but it sounded nervous. “Whatever, freak.”
He walked away. It was the first victory Xun had ever tasted.
It was a Thursday evening when Mary saw him. The PE locker room was empty except for the two of them. She had forgotten her jacket, and he had been changing out of his gym clothes. When she walked in, he was shirtless, his back to her. She saw the muscles she had never noticed before, the width of his shoulders, the way his body had transformed from a boy’s into something else entirely.
He turned around. She froze. Her eyes dropped involuntarily, and there it was—half-erect, thick as her forearm, jutting out from his shorts like a challenge to nature itself. Her face flushed, but she didn’t look away.
“Sorry,” Xun muttered, grabbing his shirt.
“No,” she said, her voice barely a whisper. “Don’t.”
She stepped closer. He could see her pulse beating in her throat. Her hand reached out, hesitated, then touched his chest. The contact sent a shock through both of them.
That night, in the abandoned storage shed behind the school, Xun took her virginity. It wasn’t gentle—he didn’t know how to be gentle. He was learning his own strength, and she was learning her own desire. She cried out when he entered her, but she held onto him, nails digging into his back. When it was over, they lay tangled together on the dusty floor, breathing hard.
“I’m yours,” she whispered into his neck.
He didn’t know how to respond. So he just held her tighter.
Word spread. Zhao Hu heard about it from a friend who had seen them leaving the shed together. His face went pale, then red. He stormed through the school looking for Xun, fists clenched.
He found him at the basketball court, shooting hoops alone as the sun set.
“You think you’re something now?” Zhao Hu shouted, voice cracking. “You think you can just take her? She’s mine!”
Xun caught the ball and turned slowly. His body was relaxed, but his eyes were cold. “She was never yours.”
Zhao Hu charged. He threw a wild punch, aimed at Xun’s face. Xun didn’t dodge. He caught Zhao Hu’s fist in his palm, squeezed, and twisted. Zhao Hu screamed as his wrist bent at an unnatural angle. Xun shoved him, and Zhao Hu stumbled back, falling onto the asphalt.
“Get up,” Xun said, his voice flat.
Zhao Hu scrambled to his feet, fear now warring with rage in his eyes. “I’ll kill you!”
“You can’t.” Xun stepped closer. “You never could. You only ever could because I let you.”
He grabbed Zhao Hu by the collar and lifted him off the ground with one arm. Zhao Hu dangled, kicking, his face reddening as the collar cut into his throat. Xun held him there for a long moment, watching his bully squirm, before dropping him in a heap.
“Don’t touch me again,” Xun said. “And don’t look at Mary.”
Mary appeared at the edge of the court, her face concerned. She had heard the commotion from the dorms. She walked to Xun’s side and slipped her hand into his. Zhao Hu stared up at them from the ground, his pride shattered, his obsession now a burning coal in his chest.
“Watch,” Xun said softly, looking down at him.
He pulled Mary close, his arm wrapping around her waist. She looked up at him, questioning, but he shook his head. Then he kissed her, deep and long, his free hand tangling in her hair. She melted against him, her body pressing into his.
When he broke the kiss, Mary was breathless, her cheeks flushed. Xun looked at Zhao Hu, who was still on the ground, tears of anger and humiliation streaming down his face.
“See?” Xun said. “This is what you’ll never have.”
He took Mary’s hand and led her away into the darkness. Behind them, Zhao Hu let out a sound that was half-sob, half-roar, his fists pounding uselessly against the asphalt.
That night, in the storage shed again, Xun laid Mary down on an old tarp and took her with the same fierce intensity. This time she moaned his name, loud enough for anyone passing to hear. And someone did pass—Zhao Hu, who had followed them, who pressed his ear to the crack in the door and listened to every gasp, every cry, every wet sound that told him he had lost.
He stood there for an hour, trembling, hating, and finally broke down. He slid to the ground, back against the door, and wept.
Inside, Xun held Mary close, feeling her heart beat against his chest. For the first time in his life, he felt powerful. He felt like a man. But somewhere in the back of his mind, a small voice whispered that this—the cruelty, the need to humiliate—was not strength. It was just revenge dressed up in muscles.
He ignored that voice. It was easier to feel nothing but the warmth of Mary’s body and the cold satisfaction of victory.