The air in our slaughter shop always carries that metallic sweetness. It clings to everything—the concrete floor, the stainless steel hooks, my mother's hands even after she washes them three times. I've grown up breathing it, tasting it on my tongue like it's perfectly normal.
I'm in the back room, adjusting my white stockings. The seamless nylon pulls tight against my long legs, stretching from my toes all the way up to where they disappear beneath my maid dress. No underwear today. There's never any point. Not in this house.
"Yue'er!" My mother's voice cuts through the hum of the refrigeration units. Lan'er. She sounds excited, breathless in that way she gets when she's found something special.
I pad down the hallway, my bare feet silent on the worn linoleum. The shop floor is empty, the holding pens quiet. Father must be in his office, doing whatever he does with his account books and his quiet smiles.
Mother stands by the front counter, and beside her—a girl. Small, pale, with enormous eyes that dart around the room like a cornered rabbit. She can't be older than me. Eighteen, maybe. Her high school uniform is crisp and clean, white blouse tucked into a pleated skirt, and her legs are sheathed in pantyhose that catch the fluorescent light. Crystal flesh stockings, the kind that look like bare skin until you touch them.
"Li Pei," Mother says, running a hand along the girl's shoulder. "Isn't she lovely?"
Li Pei trembles but doesn't pull away. She's been bought. Paid for. She knows what that means.
"Very lovely, Mother."
Lan'er's smile widens. She's wearing her usual outfit—a tight vest that strains against her massive chest, her E-cups threatening to spill out, and denim hot pants that ride up her thighs. Fair skin, soft curves. She looks like she should be in a magazine, not standing in a slaughter shop with a purchased girl.
"Come," Mother says, taking Li Pei's hand. "Let's get to know each other."
She leads the girl toward the back rooms. The ones with the padded floors and the soundproof walls. I follow because I always follow when Mother has that look in her eyes.
The room is warm, soft-lit from a lamp in the corner. A mattress lies on the floor, covered in clean sheets. Mother guides Li Pei down onto it, stroking her hair, whispering things I can't hear. The girl's eyes are wet, but she doesn't resist. She's been prepared for this. Broken in, somewhere else, before she arrived.
"Yue'er," Mother says without looking up. "Come here."
I kneel on the mattress beside them. Li Pei's stockings whisper against the sheets as she shifts, and the sound goes straight through me. Mother's hand finds my waist, pulls me closer.
We touch her together. Mother takes the girl's mouth, kissing her slow and deep while my hands travel down her body, over the pleated skirt, beneath the hem. Li Pei gasps against Mother's lips when my fingers find her wet through the nylon. The pantyhose are damp already, clinging to her skin.
"Good girl," Mother murmurs. "You're doing so well."
She peels Li Pei's blouse open, buttons scattering across the floor. Small breasts, barely A-cups, pale as milk. Mother takes one in her mouth while I work the girl's skirt up around her waist, exposing the soaked gusset of her stockings. I tear through the nylon with my teeth, tasting her through the fabric. Sweet and clean, like soap and salt.
Li Pei moans. A real moan, not forced. Her body is responding even if her mind isn't here anymore. Mother's hand guides mine down between my own legs, where I'm already hard, straining against the fabric of my dress.
"Yue'er," Mother says, her voice thick. "Give it to her. Gently."
I position myself between Li Pei's thighs. The torn stockings frame her entrance perfectly, the nylon still intact around her legs but open where it matters. She's watching me now, her eyes glassy, her lips parted. I push into her slowly, feeling her stretch around me, hearing her moan catch in her throat.
Mother watches. Touches herself. Guides my hips with her hands until we find a rhythm that makes Li Pei's toes curl in her soaked stockings. I fuck her while Mother fucks her with her fingers, both of us working together, our bodies moving in tandem.
It doesn't take long. Li Pei comes with a scream muffled against Mother's shoulder, her body convulsing around me. I follow close behind, emptying myself into her as she shakes and sobs and clings to us both.
Afterward, we lie tangled together, breathing hard. Li Pei is between us, her stockings ruined, her uniform destroyed. She looks peaceful now. Spent.
"Your father," Mother says, propping herself up on one elbow. "He needs to prepare her."
She rises, smoothing down her vest, adjusting the waistband of her hot pants. I watch her leave, still half-hard against Li Pei's thigh. The girl doesn't move. Just stares at the ceiling.
Minutes pass. Then Mother returns, and her face is wrong. Tight. Angry in a way I've never seen before.
"He's gone."
I sit up. "What?"
"The car is still here. His keys are still here. But he's gone." She paces the room, her bare feet slapping against the mattress. "He's never gone when there's work to be done."
"He's probably just—"
"I looked everywhere." Mother's voice is sharp, cutting me off. "Everywhere, Yue'er. He's not in the house."
Li Pei stirs between us, awareness creeping back into her eyes. She looks at me. Looks at Mother. Begins to understand that something is wrong.
This is what needs to happen next. The shop needs to close its business for the night. Li Pei needs to be processed. But there is no one to do it.
Mother stops pacing. She's staring at me.
"Fine," she says. "You'll do it."
The word hits me like cold water. "Mother, I've never—"
"Your father taught you. I taught you. You know how." She's already moving toward the cabinet where we keep the tools. "We can't keep her here overnight. She's bought and paid for. The paperwork is done. She's ready."
Li Pei is sitting up now, her ruined uniform falling away from her body. She's looking at the tools in Mother's hands. A cleaver. A boning knife. The steel hook we use to hang the carcasses.
"No," she whispers. "Please. I'll do anything. I'll stay. I'll work. Please."
Mother ignores her. She hands me the cleaver. It's heavier than I remember, the handle worn smooth from years of use.
"The hook room," she says. "Take her there. I'll clean up here."
Li Pei is crying now, tears streaming down her cheeks, snot running from her nose. She crawls toward me, grabs my ankles, presses her wet face against my stockings.
"Please. You were so gentle. Please don't."
I look down at her. At the mess of her stockings. At the semen drying on her thighs. At the way her small body shakes against my legs.
My mother is watching. Waiting.
I wrap my hand around the girl's arm and pull her to her feet. She doesn't resist. They never do, once they've been bought. It's part of the training—the breaking—whatever you want to call it. They accept their fate because they've been taught to accept their fate.
The hook room is cold. Sterile. White tiles on the walls and floor, a drain in the center, a chain hanging from the ceiling with a meat hook at the end. It swings slightly when I walk in, catching the light.
"On your knees," I say.
Li Pei kneels on the tile floor. Her bare knees make a soft sound against the white surface. She's stopped crying now. Just stares straight ahead, her expression blank, her body still.
I stand behind her. The cleaver is in my right hand, heavy and ready.
"You should keep your eyes open," I say. "It's better that way."
She doesn't respond. Doesn't move.
The first swing is easy. Clean. The blade goes through her neck like it's cutting through butter, severing vertebrae and sinew and flesh. Her head topples forward, hitting the tile floor with a wet sound, rolling to a stop against the drain.
Blood sprays from her neck in a hot arc, drenching my dress, my arms, my face. It soaks into my white stockings, running down my legs in thick rivulets, pooling around my feet on the white tile floor.
The body slumps forward. The blood keeps coming. A dark red lake spreading outward, touching the tips of my stockings, climbing up the sheer fabric like it's alive.
I stand there, holding the cleaver, watching her blood soak into every thread of my clothing. My stockings are ruined. Bright white turned to deep crimson. The blood is warm. Almost hot.
Mother appears in the doorway, bathed in the fluorescent light. She looks at me, at the body, at the blood covering everything.
"Good," she says. "Clean yourself up. There's more work to do tomorrow."
She turns and walks away. Her footsteps echo down the hallway.
I look down at Li Pei's head. Her eyes are still open. Still staring.
The blood on my stockings is beginning to cool.