The quarters were silent except for the soft hum of the air conditioner. Ito Shizuka sat motionless on the edge of her cot, her uniform perfectly pressed, her dark hair pulled back in a severe bun. The room smelled of polish and starch, but beneath it, she could still smell the tatami—wet, fibrous, tangy with copper.
She was seven years old again.
The sliding door to her aunt’s private chamber had been left slightly ajar. Shizuka had crept close, her small fingers wrapping around the wooden frame, and watched.
Her aunt knelt on the worn tatami, a white kimono pooled around her like a lotus petal. She was beautiful, even in this—especially in this. Her face was calm, her eyes half-lidded, and in her hands she held a short blade, the edge gleaming in the dim light.
Shizuka did not understand the ceremony, only that the adults had spoken in hushed voices about honor and duty. But when her aunt pressed the blade into her own belly, Shizuka’s breath caught.
There was no scream. Just a sharp intake of air, a low moan that rose from deep in her aunt’s throat. The blade moved sideways, a deliberate, slow cut. The skin parted, and the flesh beneath glistened, red and wet. Her aunt’s hands trembled, but her expression shifted—from pain to something else. Something Shizuka had never seen on a face before.
Pleasure.
The edges of the wound widened, and a loop of intestine slipped out, pale and slick, sliding over her aunt’s fingers. The moan deepened, became a shudder. Her aunt’s back arched, and her lips parted. She was not crying. She was smiling.
Shizuka’s small body pressed harder against the doorframe. Her chest tightened. A strange heat gathered low in her belly, spreading down her thighs. She did not understand why her knees buckled, why her mouth went dry, why her own breath came in shallow gasps as she watched the steady pulse of blood soak into the tatami.
Her aunt’s eyes met hers for a single second—just a flash—before they glazed over and the body slumped forward.
Shizuka had run back to her room, trembling, and touched herself for the first time, chasing that moment again and again in her mind. She never told anyone what she had seen. She never needed to.
The air conditioner hummed. The memory faded.
Shizuka blinked, her eyes focusing on the empty wall of her quarters. Her hand had drifted to her own abdomen during the recollection, pressing against the fabric of her uniform, right below the navel. She could feel the heat of her skin through the shirt.
She drew a slow breath, then let it out. The decision was not sudden. It had been forming for years, crystallizing with each ritual she read about, each photograph she studied, each fantasy she refined in the dark of her room.
She stood, walked to her desk, and opened a drawer. Inside lay a leather-bound notebook, its pages filled with names, dates, sketches. She had spent months selecting them. Eight women. Eight perfect bodies. Eight final moments.
She turned to the first page.
*Sato Mako. 17. High school student. Cheerful. Trusting. Untouched.*
Shizuka smiled. She closed the notebook and tucked it into her jacket pocket.
The sun was low when she stepped out of the base gates, her uniform replaced with civilian clothes—a simple blouse and skirt, her hair loose. She looked ordinary. Unremarkable. A woman on a late afternoon walk.
She found Mako just where the intelligence report had said she would be: walking alone along the riverbank, her school uniform crisp, her backpack slung over one shoulder. The girl was humming a pop song, her steps light, her ponytail swinging.
Shizuka quickened her pace, falling into step beside her.
“Excuse me,” she said, her voice warm, motherly. “Are you Sato Mako-chan?”
Mako stopped, turning with a friendly smile. “Yes? Can I help you?”
Shizuka returned the smile, her eyes soft. “I’m a cultural researcher with the prefectural office. We’re conducting a traditional arts demonstration this weekend, and your name came highly recommended. I was wondering if you’d like to participate.”
The girl’s eyes widened with curiosity. “Me? What kind of demonstration?”
“Something beautiful,” Shizuka said, and her hand brushed her own belly, just for a moment. “A very old ritual. Would you like to hear more?”