Xiao Tian's footsteps echoed softly through the silent hallway as he turned the key in the front door. School had ended an hour ago, but he'd stayed behind to finish a history assignment, letting the empty classroom swallow the afternoon hours. Now the apartment felt different somehow, charged with something he couldn't name.
"Mom?" he called out, his voice tentative.
No answer.
He dropped his backpack by the shoe cabinet and slipped off his sneakers, his mother's heels catching his eye—a pair of black pumps she'd left by the entrance, slightly scuffed at the toe. He'd noticed them this morning when she was rushing out for work. She always looked elegant in her work clothes, her calves wrapped in sheer nude stockings that seemed to shimmer under the office lights.
A faint sound drifted from down the hallway. A thump. Then a muffled voice.
Xiao Tian froze, his heart beginning to pick up speed. His mother should have been home by now, but she worked late most days. Maybe she'd come back early? He took a hesitant step toward the corridor, then another.
The sound came again—a soft, strained cry that made the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.
"Auntie?" he whispered, confused.
His aunt's car had been in the parking lot when he came home. She visited often, always bringing laughter and expensive wine, her demeanor so different from his mother's quiet reserve. Where his mother was careful and measured, his aunt was bold, her laughter too loud, her clothes too tight.
The door to his mother's bedroom was slightly ajar, a thin sliver of light spilling into the dark hallway. Xiao Tian's throat tightened. He should walk away. He should go to his room and close the door and pretend he'd heard nothing.
Instead, he crept closer.
Through the crack, he saw them.
His mother lay on the bed, her work suit discarded on the floor. She wore only a black lace bra and a pair of sheer black stockings that climbed her thighs, the seams running straight up her legs. Her hair, usually tied in a perfect bun, was loose and tangled across the pillow.
His aunt stood over her, dressed in a similar fashion—red stockings this time, the color stark against her pale skin, her body encased in a leather corset that cinched her waist so tightly Xiao Tian could almost hear her breath struggling out.
In his aunt's hand, a leather flogger, its dark strands dangling like the tails of some predatory animal.
"You've been bad today," his aunt said, her voice low and sweet, nothing like her usual boisterous tone. "You know what happens when you're bad."
His mother whimpered, turning her face away. "Please... I'm sorry..."
"Sorry isn't enough."
Xiao Tian's hand flew to his mouth, stifling the gasp that threatened to escape. His heart hammered against his ribs so violently he was certain they could hear it. His mother—his gentle, proper mother who always reminded him to say please and thank you, who never raised her voice, who tucked him in until he was thirteen—was being...
But she wasn't fighting. She wasn't crying out for help.
Her fingers clutched the bedsheet, her back arching slightly, and there was something in her posture that wasn't fear. It was anticipation.
"No," Xiao Tian breathed, taking a step back. His shoe scraped against the floor.
"Did you hear something?" his aunt asked, pausing.
A long, terrible silence.
Xiao Tian didn't wait. He turned and walked, each step deliberate, controlled, until he reached his room and closed the door behind him with a soft click. He leaned against it, his breath ragged, his hands shaking.
He slid to the floor and sat there in the dark, listening to the silence that had swallowed the apartment.
Later—he didn't know how much later—he heard footsteps in the hallway, the soft murmur of voices, then the front door opening and closing. His aunt leaving. His mother's footsteps padding past his room, pausing briefly outside his door.
"Xiao Tian? Are you awake?"
He didn't answer.
After a moment, she moved on.
That night, he lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, unable to sleep. The image burned behind his eyelids—his mother in those stockings, her body exposed, her head thrown back. His aunt with that cruel smile, the flogger swinging.
He tried to force the scene away, to replace it with something normal. His mother folding laundry. His mother making breakfast. His mother kissing his forehead before bed.
But the stockings remained. The black lace. The red leather.
His body responded in ways that disgusted him, that thrilled him, that made him pull the blanket over his head and squeeze his eyes shut until colors burst behind his lids.
A masochist.
The word surfaced from somewhere in his memory, a term he'd heard whispered between classmates, laughed off as a joke. His mother, who cried during sad movies and couldn't kill a spider, was a masochist.
And his aunt, his loud, bold aunt who always wore too much perfume and touched his shoulder too often, was the one who held the whip.
His alarm clock read 2:34 AM. Outside, the city hummed with distant traffic, the occasional siren wailing into the night. The apartment was quiet now, save for the faint creak of the building settling around him.
He thought of his mother's face. The ecstasy beneath the fear. The surrender.
"Yes, sir," she had said. Not "yes, ma'am." "Sir."
Something cold curled in his stomach. Something hot followed after.
He couldn't stop seeing it. He couldn't stop imagining what would have happened if he'd stayed a moment longer, if he'd pushed the door open, if he'd—
No.
Xiao Tian punched his pillow, turning onto his side, pulling his knees to his chest. He was a good son. He was a good student. He didn't think about his mother like that.
But the stockings stayed.
And somewhere in the dark, in the space between sleep and waking, he wondered what it would be like to hold the whip.