The morning air is cool against my skin as I stand before the bathroom mirror, studying my reflection with a mixture of shame and illicit pleasure. The fluorescent lights cast harsh shadows across my face, but I barely notice. My fingers trace the edge of the black lace bra hidden beneath my simple white button-down shirt, the fabric a secret weight against my chest.
I undress slowly, methodically, as if performing a ritual. First the shirt comes off, then the slacks. I stand in my boxers, a man in underwear, but the reflection shows something else. The broad mirror betrays my slender frame, the gentle curve of my waist, the way my hips flare just slightly wider than a typical man's. I've always been built this way—delicate, almost feminine. It's both a curse and a private treasure.
From the drawer I pull out my hidden collection. Black lace panties, delicate and sheer. I step into them, feeling the fabric slide up my thighs, settling against my skin like a second layer. The sensation is electric, forbidden. I adjust the waistband, making sure it sits just right, the lace peeking above the line of my trousers. Then come the stockings—flesh-colored, held up by a garter belt that hugs my waist. Each clip fastens with a soft click, anchoring the silk to my body.
The butt plug is next. I've used it countless times in private, alone in my apartment, experimenting with pleasure and shame. But today is different. Today I plan to wear it to work. The thought makes my heart race, my breath catch. I lubricate it generously, then position myself over the toilet, one hand on the wall for balance. The initial pressure makes me gasp, my eyes fluttering closed as I push it inside. It seats itself firmly, a constant presence in my ass, that reminds me with every step of what I am hiding.
I dress again quickly, the button-down falling over my torso, the slacks hiding everything. But I know what lies beneath. I can feel the stockings against my thighs, the gentle pressure of the plug deep inside me. It's a secret I carry into the world, a thrill that makes my palms sweat.
The walk to the university is uneventful. I pass students, colleagues, nodding politely, my face composed, professional. No one suspects. How could they? I am Lin Fei, the youngest counselor, respected, trusted. But beneath this calm exterior, I am a man drowning in contradiction—ashamed of my desires yet unwilling to let them go.
The counseling center is quiet when I arrive. I settle into my office, boot up my computer, organize my files. The butt plug shifts as I sit, a subtle reminder of its presence. I shift in my chair, trying to get comfortable, but there's no true comfort to be found. I am caught between worlds, always.
Later in the morning, I have a lecture to deliver. An introductory psychology session for freshmen. The classroom is large, tiered seating, about sixty students. I stand at the podium, notes in hand, and begin speaking. My voice is steady, practiced. I talk about conditioning, about behaviorism, about the ways environment shapes response. The irony is not lost on me.
I'm midway through an explanation of Pavlov's dogs when I need to retrieve a dropped pen. I bend at the waist, reaching under the podium, and feel the fabric of my shirt rise. For just a moment, a sliver of skin is exposed at my lower back, along with the top edge of my stockings. I don't notice. I pick up the pen and straighten, continuing my lecture without pause.
But in the back row, a student's eyes sharpen.
Chen Gang.
He's a large young man, overweight, unremarkable at first glance. But his gaze is anything but dull. He saw it—the brief flash of flesh-toned fabric against pale skin. Lace, perhaps. His mind works quickly, connecting fragments, forming hypotheses. He watches me more closely now, noting the way I stand, the subtle tension in my shoulders, the faint blush on my cheeks.
I continue talking, oblivious. The lecture drones on, but my body is aware. The plug inside me shifts with each movement, a gentle pressure, a dull ache. It's grounding and distracting all at once.
The class ends. Students shuffle out, chatting, laughing. I pack my notes, feeling a strange reluctance to leave. The plug has become part of me, and I don't want to remove it yet. I decide to keep it in for the rest of the day, indulging in this private torment.
I go to the restroom during a break. The farthest stall, as always, for privacy. I relieve myself, adjust my clothes, and in my haste, I leave the remote control for the butt plug on the back of the toilet seat. It's small, black, innocuous. But it holds power. I exit, my mind already on the next task.
Chen Gang enters the restroom moments later. He's been following me, casually, watching. He sees the stall door close, waits, sees me leave. His curiosity drives him to the farthest stall. He pushes open the door.
The remote sits there, silent, waiting.
He picks it up, turning it over in his thick fingers. It takes him a few seconds to recognize what it is. An adult toy. A remote for a vibrating device. He remembers the flash of lace, the delicate frame of the counselor. A slow, cold smile spreads across his face.
He pockets the remote without a second thought.
Back in the classroom, I'm already at the podium, delivering my next lecture. The topic is memory, but I'm not fully present. I'm thinking about the plug, about the sensations I crave. I want to feel it move. I want to be controlled.
Then it happens.
A low vibration starts deep inside me.
My breath catches. My body stiffens. The sensation spreads through my pelvis, warm and insistent. I grip the podium, my knuckles white, fighting to maintain composure. My face flushes a deep red. I stammer through a sentence, correcting myself, hoping no one notices.
But someone does.
Chen Gang is in the back row, his hand in his pocket, thumb pressing the button. He watches me sway, saw my expression flicker from calm to panic. He presses again, a longer buzz this time.
I gasp audibly, then cough to cover it. My legs tremble. I lean against the podium for support, my voice wavering. "S-sorry, just a moment." I take a sip of water, my hand shaking. The vibration continues, pulsing, relentless.
Inside, my mind races. The remote. I left it in the bathroom. Someone found it. Someone is controlling me right now, in front of all these students. The fear is paralyzing, but underneath it, something else stirs. A dark excitement. A longing I've never fully acknowledged. I want this. I want to be at someone's mercy.
The vibration stops abruptly. I sag with relief, but it's short-lived. Another buzz, stronger. My hips twitch. I bite my lip to suppress a moan. The students are looking at me strangely. I mumble something about the heat and continue the lecture, my voice strained, my body trembling.
Chen Gang watches with cold satisfaction. He knows. He presses the button in patterns, testing me. Short bursts, long ones, intermittent. He watches my reactions—the quiver in my voice, the tremor in my hands, the way I shift my weight from foot to foot. This beautiful, delicate man is his to control.
The lecture ends. I dismiss the class with a wave, barely able to speak. My legs are weak, my underwear soaked with excitement and sweat. I should go to the bathroom, remove the plug, end this. But I don't. I want more.
I gather my things and walk out of the classroom, my gait unsteady. The plug shifts with each step, a constant presence. I'm hyperaware of it, of the garter belt around my waist, the stockings against my legs. I feel exposed, vulnerable, and impossibly aroused.
In the hallway, I take a few steps, then stop. The vibration starts again.
I gasp, my hand flying to the wall. Students pass by, oblivious. I force myself to walk, each step a challenge as the plug buzzes inside me. My face is crimson. I'm trembling. I can't control it.
Behind me, at a distance, Chen Gang follows. His thumb presses the button at intervals—in the hallway, at the stairwell, around the corner. He watches me stumble, my body reacting against my will. He enjoys the sight, the power.
I reach the stairwell and begin descending. The vibration starts again, stronger. My knees buckle. I grab the railing, panting, barely able to stand. A moan escapes my lips before I can stop it. I clap my hand over my mouth, eyes wide with fear and pleasure.
The vibration stops. I take a shaky breath, continuing down. But it starts again, and again, a pattern of torture and tease. By the time I reach the ground floor, I'm soaked in sweat, my legs trembling, my mind a haze of shame and desire.
I pause at the exit, looking back over my shoulder. I don't see Chen Gang, but I feel him. I know he's there, somewhere, holding the remote, watching me. The thought sends a shiver down my spine.
I should confront him. I should demand the remote back. I should end this game.
But I don't.
Instead, I walk out into the afternoon sun, a strange anticipation building inside me. The vibrations have stopped for now, but I know they won't stay silent for long. I'm his plaything now, and part of me—the deepest, darkest part—is thrilled.
I make my way toward my office, my body humming with residual sensation. I need to sit, to collect myself, but I also need to prolong this. The duality tears at me. I am Lin Fei, counselor, professional, respected. And I am a man in stockings, with a plug in his ass, being controlled by a stranger.
The office door closes behind me. I lean against it, breathing heavily. My hand drifts to my crotch, pressing against the bulge in my trousers. I'm hard, painfully hard. I want to touch myself, to release this tension, but I don't dare. Not yet.
I sit at my desk, trying to focus on paperwork. But every few minutes, the vibration returns for a few seconds, just enough to make me gasp, to remind me that I am not alone, that I am being watched. The control is never fully off, and never fully on. It's a game, and I am the pawn.
Chen Gang, from a bench outside, watches my office window. He sees me jerk, see my hand grip the desk. He smiles, a cold, predatory expression. He's found his toy, and he intends to play with it for a long time.
Inside, I'm trembling, my breath coming in short gasps. The plug buzzes, stops, buzzes again. I'm sweating, my shirt clinging to my back. My desire is overwhelming, drowning out reason. I don't want this to end.
The day passes in a haze of anticipation and torment. Each lecture, each meeting, each private moment is punctuated by sudden vibrations that make me gasp, flush, and squirm. By late afternoon, I am exhausted, wrung out, but still craving more.
I should remove the plug. I should go home, shower, and return to normal. But the thought of being empty, of feeling nothing, is unbearable. I've crossed a line, and I can't go back.
I leave the university at dusk, walking slowly, savoring the silence. The remote is quiet for now. I don't know if he's gone or if he's waiting. The uncertainty is part of the thrill.
At home, I lock the door and lean against it, closing my eyes. The day's events replay in my mind. The sharp gaze of a student, the cold smile, the relentless vibrations. I should be terrified. I should call the police. I should do something.
But instead, I slide to the floor, my hand between my legs, pressing against the fabric of my trousers. I'm shaking with need. The plug is still there, waiting. I want it to move. I want him to control me again.
My phone buzzes. A text from an unknown number.
"Good night. More tomorrow."
I stare at the screen, my heart pounding. He has my number. He knows who I am. The fear crashes over me, but so does the desire. I'm caught in his web, and I don't want to escape.
I type a response, my fingers trembling. "Who are you?"
The reply comes instantly. "Your master."
I drop the phone, my breath catching. Master. The word echoes in my mind, a forbidden title, a dark promise. I should reject i
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