The morning light crept through the grimy windows of the Government Slave Management Office, casting long shadows across the cluttered desks. Su Wan'er sat at her workstation, a stack of slaughter permit requests piled before her. She had been at this job for three months now, processing the bureaucratic machinery that turned living women into meat. Today was no different. A routine review.
She picked up the top folder, flipping it open. The face staring back at her was a photograph, faded and official, of a woman in her late fifties. Number 7742. Meat animal classification: Standard. Breeds: Female, healthy, no diseases. The master’s name was listed below: a licensed butcher, private facility, approved by the city council.
Su Wan'er’s hand hovered over the stamp. Then her eyes caught the name field. The birth name, recorded from the slave’s intake form. It jumped at her, a ghost clawing through the years.
*Chen Meiling.*
Her mother’s name.
The world tilted. Su Wan'er’s lungs felt empty. She blinked, once, twice, but the name remained. The photograph—she forced herself to look at it closely. The woman’s face was gaunt, hair gray and cropped short, eyes hollow. There were scars on her cheeks, brand marks on her neck. But the bone structure, the set of the jaw, the shape of the ears—it was her. It was the woman who had left her in a cardboard box behind an orphanage twenty-four years ago.
Su Wan'er’s fingers trembled. She closed the folder, then opened it again. The slaughter permit request was complete. Everything was in order. The master had submitted the required vetting, the health inspection, the processing timeline. In three days, the meat would be harvested.
She sat motionless for a long minute. Then, with a calmness that felt alien, she placed the permit into the “Approved” pile. Her hand moved with mechanical precision. But her mind was screaming.
She needed to know more.
The master’s address was listed on the permit. A small private facility in the industrial district, not far from the office. Su Wan'er logged the permit, stood up, and informed the supervisor she had a follow-up inspection to do for quality control. The supervisor grunted, waved her away. Such visits were normal.
She took a government car. The drive was short, the streets lined with gray warehouses and smokestacks. The private slaughter facility was a nondescript building, no signage, just a heavy steel door with an intercom. She pressed the buzzer. A man’s voice crackled through.
“State your purpose.”
“Government inspection. Permit review for animal 7742.” She kept her voice steady.
There was a pause. The door buzzed open.
Inside, the air was cold and sterile. Corridors of white tiles, drains in the floor, the faint metallic scent of blood and disinfectant. A man in a bloodstained apron met her—the master, a burly individual with calm eyes.
“Inspector?” He wiped his hands on his apron.
“Su Wan'er, Slave Management Bureau.” She held up her ID. “Your permit for 7742 has been approved. Standard pre-slaughter observation is required.”
He nodded. “Follow me.”
He led her through a door into a holding area. Cages lined the walls, each containing a woman. They were thin, docile, their eyes blank. Some stared at Su Wan'er with dull recognition at her uniform; others looked away. The master stopped at a cage toward the back.
“This is her. 7742. Chen Meiling.”
The woman inside sat cross-legged on the concrete floor. Her hands were bound with plastic cuffs. She looked up at the sound of her name. Her eyes met Su Wan'er’s.
There was no flicker of recognition. Only a faint smile, placid and empty.
Su Wan'er’s heart hammered. She turned to the master. “I need to conduct a private interview with the animal. Standard procedure for permit verification.”
The master shrugged. “Five minutes. Don’t touch her without gloves.”
He walked away, leaving Su Wan'er alone at the cage.
She crouched down, close to the bars. Her mother’s face was inches away, but the woman showed no sign of knowing her. Su Wan'er spoke softly, her voice cracking.
“Do you remember me?”
The woman tilted her head. Her lips parted, revealing missing teeth. “No,” she said, her voice a rasp. “I don’t remember anything from before. They cleaned my memory when I was captured.”
Cleaning. Standard procedure for long-term meat animals.
Su Wan'er swallowed. “I’m your daughter. Su Wan'er. You left me at the orphanage.”
The woman’s expression remained blank. Then slowly, something shifted—not recognition, but curiosity. “I had a baby,” she murmured, as if reciting a distant fact. “They said it was a girl. Long time ago.”
“That was me.”
The woman stared at her for a long moment. Then she chuckled, a dry, rusty sound. “Strange. I never thought she’d end up like this.”
“Like what?”
“Standing on the other side of the bars.”
Su Wan'er felt a sting, but she pushed it down. “You’re being slaughtered in three days. Do you understand that?”
Her mother nodded, still smiling. “I know. My master told me. I’ve been fattening up for weeks. The feed is good here.”
There was no fear in her voice. No anger. No sorrow. Just a placid acceptance that made Su Wan'er’s skin crawl.
“Why are you happy? You’re going to die.”
The woman leaned forward, her bound hands resting on her knees. “I’ve been a slave for fourteen years. Worked in the fields, was a breeding stock for a while, then they sold me here. This is the first time someone has cared about my body enough to fatten me, to prepare me. The slaughter is the purpose. It’s the only thing I have left that gives me meaning.”
Su Wan'er’s hand gripped the bars. “That’s insane.”
“Is it?” Her mother’s smile widened. “You work for the bureau. You must see this every day. The ones who fight it suffer longer. They get bruised meat, lower quality. But the ones who accept it… we get a good death. Painless. Quick. And after we’re gone, our bodies become food. We serve. That’s all we were ever meant for.”
Su Wan'er shook her head, but she could not find words.
The master returned. “Time’s up.”
Su Wan'er stood, her legs weak. She followed the master out of the holding area, but paused at the door. “I want to observe the slaughter,” she said.
The master gave her a calculating look. “Observers usually pay a fee.”
“I’ll process it as part of quality control.”
He nodded. “Three days from now. Be here at dawn.”
Three days passed in a haze. Su Wan'er did not sleep. She attended work mechanically, signed permits, filed reports, but her mind kept circling back to that cage, that smile, those words.
On the morning of the slaughter, she arrived early. The master let her in without comment. He led her to a small observation room adjacent to the slaughter chamber. A glass window looked down into the white-tiled room below. A drain in the center. Hooks hanging from the ceiling.
Her mother was brought in, naked, hands bound in front of her. She walked calmly, her feet bare on the cold floor. The master and two assistants prepped the equipment. They spoke in low tones, businesslike.
Su Wan'er pressed her face to the glass.
Her mother looked up at the observation window. Their eyes met. And then the woman smiled. A genuine, radiant smile, like a child seeing a birthday cake.
The master said something to her. She nodded. He helped her lie down on the table, her head tilted back. One assistant held her legs, another her arms. The master picked up a long, thin blade.
Su Wan'er’s breath caught. She wanted to look away. But she couldn’t. She was frozen, mesmerized.
The blade pressed against her mother’s throat. Blood bloomed, dark and thick, spilling over the clean white tiles. Her mother’s body jerked, but her eyes stayed open, fixed on the observation window. That smile never left her face. It widened, gleaming with blood.
Then the light in her eyes dimmed. Her body went slack.
The assistants began the work of bleeding her out, then hoisting her onto hooks. The master worked deftly, separating joints, peeling hide, quartering the carcass.
Su Wan'er stood at the window until it was over.
Her hands were trembling. Not from grief—she felt nothing for the woman who had abandoned her. But a different emotion stirred in her chest. Confusion. Curiosity. And something darker.
Her mother had been happy. Truly happy in her final moments. She had found purpose in being consumed. That acceptance, that joy, was incomprehensible to Su Wan'er. Yet she could not deny what she had witnessed.
She walked out of the facility into the gray morning light. The air smelled of exhaust and wet concrete. She got into her car, sat motionless, and replayed the scene in her mind.
What did it mean? To face death with a smile? To embrace the knife?
She had seen dozens of slaughter permits, signed hundreds of authorizations. But never had she watched the act. Never had she seen the expression of a woman who had found peace in annihilation.
Her mother’s face floated before her. The eyes, the smile, the blood.
Su Wan'er started the engine.
She drove back to the office, her hands steady now. As she walked to her desk, the supervisor called her into his office.
“Wan'er, a word.”
She entered. He closed the door, sat behind his desk, and studied her with those cold, appraising eyes. “I heard you visited a private facility yesterday. And again today.”
“Standard quality control,” she said.
“The facility reported you watched the slaughter.” He leaned forward. “That is unusual for someone at your level.”
Su Wan'er held his gaze. “I wanted to understand the process better.”
He nodded slowly. “And did you?”
“Yes.” The word came out stronger than she expected. “I think I’m beginning to understand.”
A thin smile crossed his lips. “Good. That’s very good. There’s a higher-level assignment coming up. Work with illegal organizations, high-risk captures. I need someone who can see the value in our work without flinching.”
“I don’t flinch.”
He held her gaze for a long moment. Then he leaned back. “You’re ready then. Report to me tomorrow. I’ll give you the details.”
Su Wan'er left his office. She walked past her coworkers, past Senior Brother who was chatting with a subordinate by the water cooler. He gave her a friendly wave, but she barely registered it.
Her mind was full of blood and smiles.
That night, alone in her small apartment, she closed her eyes and saw her mother’s face. The slack, peaceful expression. The surrender.
She wondered what it would feel like to be that free.
Then she shook her head, pulled a blanket over herself, and fell into a restless sleep.
But in her dreams, she was the one on the table. And she was smiling.